Time for a change...

Hello lovelies,

Long time, no blogging.  I know I haven't done the 30x30 challenge, but I found that to be really difficult with work and what not.  I work with some pretty fashionable people who don't ever seem to repeat outfits.  I'm not ruling out doing this challenge, but I think I'm going to push it back until summer, because this summer will be all about bright colors and maxi dresses! So, I think it will be much easier to actually follow and complete this challenge.

Ok, now onto more important matters.  I recently got my hair cut in January but I set up an appointment for April 11, just so I could touch up the haircut I got originally.  The cut was a little below my shoulder and has a lot of layers.  I loved this cut and the reason I scheduled an appointment so soon after was because I was contemplating going even shorter.

Well, after much thought I've decided to go even shorter than I originally anticipated.  A few months ago I found a picture on pinterest of this simply stunning lob (a long bob).  I've always envied people who look amazing with short hair, but unfortunately I have a round face that can't pull off super short hair.  I can however, pull off shoulder length hair.  Here are some ideas of the hairstyle I'm thinking of, all the pictures were found on pinterest or boxno216.com.  

I really want a shorter do for the summer and think this will be perfect.  My only issue with my hair is that it is only one blah color.  I have never dyed my hair or lightened it in any sort of way.  I think this haircut needs some added dimension.  So I think I'm going to get subtle highlights.  I've never been a fan of streaky highlights. I want my highlights to look as natural as possible and just give me a beachy look.  I'm thinking of doing something along these lines:

Let me know what you think.... I'll post a blog post about it once I get it done!

Please check out http://www.boxno216.com... they do some amazing work with color!!!

What a TERRIBLE Day

Well today has not been my day.  First off, I made the very big girl decision that I need to make a major life change.  Currently, I feel like my life is so boring that I need to try something new.  I think graduating has finally hit me and I feel like since I don't have a full time job I need to do something else.  I can't continue in the position I have now.  With that being said, I've decided to apply for jobs elsewhere, both retail and non-retail positions.

I was hesitant initially about my decision but after the day I had today I feel completely justified in the decision I made.  I never thought in a million years that the company/store I've worked for the last 4 years would be so bitter and rude to me when I told them I was looking to advance my career and move elsewhere.  I should preface by saying 2 of my 4 managers are very supportive of my decision and understand why I need to leave but my other 2 managers are just being hurtful.  It's not fair! I've worked my ass off for this store and they feel me leaving just doesn't make sense.  I'm sorry I've practically done your job and your "sad" to see me go.   One of the stores I'm considering working at is actually excited to have me as an employee.  It's going to be so weird to work for people who actually appreciate me and want to encourage me to move up through a company.

I explained to another employee that I'm exhausted and defeated with where I work.  I wake up every day and dread going to my job.  I use to like what I did and where I work but after seeing how I was treated today, I know I made the right decision to look elsewhere.

Oh well, you know what they say... It's their LOSS!!!!!

On a positive note, I felt like I needed to reward myself with a pick-me-up gift so I finally decided to get the New iPad.  To be honest, I had a $300 gift card to Best Buy so in order to make me feel a little better, I decided to finally buy it and I have no idea how I ever lived without it!!!

Well tomorrow's a new day and hopefully it brings good news and new opportunities.

Life Sucks Sometimes. I Need a Change Stat!!!!

Hello all...

As you can probably already tell this post is not going to be all sunshine and rainbows.  After my last post about unfortunately not receiving a job offer, I've been in a funk.  I've realized that I can no longer work in retail (at least not in the position I'm currently in).  I need something more, I need a management position or a real job, I just need a change.  I need something that will provide me the financial security I am looking for.

So, where does that leave me.  Hopeless, frustrated, tired, optimistic? How about all of the above.  I keep telling myself that I'm giving myself the summer to kind of figure out what I want to do but in reality there aren't really jobs out there (at least the jobs that are there are not entry level positions).  I'm just confused. I've been reading the book Life After College and the information in the book is actually helping me figure out what my goals are, what motivates me, and is helping me develop a life plan.  While the book is helping me, it is making me semi depressed as well.  I know a lot of college students are struggling to find a job but I don't hear them complaining.  I cannot stress it enough, I'm begging someone to give me a chance.

I guess the rejection email I received from my last interview is taunting me.  I should probably just delete it but I keep looking at it hoping some how it will say what I want it to say.  It's not going to happen but I can dream!  What got me was that the email said "You are extremely qualified for the position and come highly recommended, but we've decided to go with someone with more experience."  There's that word again, experience, it's almost taunting me now.  How do employers expect recent grads to gain this experience if they are not willing to give someone a chance.  I wish I used my college experience a little more efficiently and done more internships to gain that experience but I don't have a time machine so that isn't really possible.  I guess I'll just hope some employer will remember the feeling and take a chance on me.

Sorry for my rant about jobs, I think the fact that I was so close to getting this position it made me re-evaluate my life and has frustrated me.  My one friend asked me if I actually wanted this position or was I just excited to have a job? What's interesting is I couldn't really answer the question.  I think I was more interested in making a decent amount of money and being able to say I'm employed rather then doing the actual job.  Oh well, no sense in wondering what could have been.

My week improved slightly over the next couple of days.  I was able to FINALLY get a haircut, which was long overdue!

Unfortunately, my hair only looked this good for a few hours because the Jersey humidity and rain caused my naturally wavy hair to frizz and poof up.  I am grateful that my hair is healthy and shiny and just so soft.  I'm thinking come September I may try something extreme with my hair.  I've done the short bob or the long shapeless hair.  The only thing I haven't done is dye my hair yet.  My hair stylist as well as the manager of the salon I go to told me to not even think about dying my hair but I want something different.  I want to add definition and color to my hair.  What I'm thinking is something like this in terms of the cut and maybe even the color....

from Pinterest

I don't think I'd go as blonde, but maybe go a light brown at my ends.  I wish I could have my hair look this good everyday but my waves are not as disciplined.  I tend to wake up with one side looking a mess while the other looks nice and pulled together.  

This is the color I'm thinking would soot my skin tone better...

Like the title states I need a change.  Whether it's a new job or a new hairstyle.  I need something that will boost my confidence and hopefully help me land a job.


I want to leave this blog with a quote that I find fitting for this blog.

"Keep on beginning and failing.  Each time you fail, start over again, and you will grow stronger until you have accomplished a purpose- not the one you began with perhaps, but you you'll be glad to remember. " Anne Sullivan

Hopefully my next post will be filled with sunshine and butterflies!!!!

Things I Want to Accomplish This Summer

Every year I set out to accomplish a "Summer Bucket List."  It never happens, but I always make them with good intentions however this year is different because I seriously want to accomplish these things.

With out further ado, here's my "Summer 2012 Bucket List"

1. FIND A JOB- Ideally I would like a full time job that provides me with vacation days, full benefits, and a salary.
2. Try new foods- I'm an extremely (let me stress that EXTREMELY) picky eater.  I don't eat red meat or fish.  I will only eat chicken and turkey.  I realize that my diet is not the best it can be and I need to change that but I'm afraid to because I hate trying new foods.  Hopefully, by the end of summer I will have discovered new healthy foods that I can enjoy.
3. READ- I love to read so this summer I want to read as many books as possible.  I've held off from reading "Fifty Shades of Grey" but I think I may give into the hype and see what it's all about.
4. Go on an adventure- I love where I live but there are so many places in NEW JERSEY that I've never been too.  Hopefully, I can explore and learn more about the greatest state in the country!
5. Make a major change in my life- whether it's  a new job, a new hair cut, or a new outlook on life, I want to change something.  My life is so scripted that I would like to just once live on the edge.

Well here you have it... these are just a few of the rings I want to accomplish this summer.  If I don't post for a few days it's safe to assume I've become preoccupied with trying to accomplish my list.

I hope everyone has an amazing summer and accomplishes something that is on their summer bucket list as well!